stars

there are a lot of them tonight. in relation to the terrible day i have today, i opted to hope upon them. (my english teacher way back in grade four taught me that wishes don't come true, only hopes.)

sometimes, when we lose something, even if it comes back, there is no guarantee that it would still be the same as when it left us (or in some cases, when we left it). it might not be as good as it was. it might be better as it was. but one thing's for sure, it would have changed, either it comes back to you or not. but in this case, maybe i'm a fool to accept it still whatever changes it had underwent.

i would like to correct myself when i said that there is no consolation. some good people have proven me wrong. they are some of my friends, who i sincerely never thought would be here when i need them. it's just too painful to think that sometimes, even if we get something better in exchange of what was taken away from us, or what we lost, we still would prefer to be with it. there are just some things that it's too difficult to let go of.

stars are maybe there for some scientific reasons, but for me, they are there to give me hope. when i was a kid, i found hoping upon a star such a silly joke. but funny when as we grow old, the more we'd want to go back as a kid. when i chance upon stars, i get reminded of talking with God, hoping for my loved one's happiness, and thanking Him for every blessing he has bestowed upon me.