warning. i'm aggressive.
if i remember it correctly, when my social psych teacher asked us to take the how-aggressive-are-you-test last sem, i got a 82% score. that explains why i curse (as an expression) a lot.
i confess that i am indeed an impulsive person. you see, i always seem to have a reaction to something, and more often than not, it's usually intense. the good thing about it is that if you let me react on it for an hour or two, after, i tend to lighten up.
it's not often that i shout and curse at someone directly. i have never cursed someone in their faces during heated arguments, even if i was provoked. (there was an incident when i was in sophomore year when i was cursed "p*****i*a" during an open forum session. and i kept my silence.) the most that i do were usually to raise my voice. if i again, remember it right, i never became physically violent. but when i was in high school, if i really am pissed, i let it out on chairs and walls. well, as i grew older, and hopefully wiser, i have exhausted all physical efforts in sports rather than slapping or punching someone.
however, i really become obviously quiet and look disturbed when i am in a bad mood. i usually give the excuse "i'm just tired" when i don't want to elaborate on a problem, or sometimes, when the friend that's asking me what the nature of my problem is, is the friend that is causing my problem and i just couldn't tell him/ her straight (although the latter does not happen all the time.) this is something that only my close friends know about. i'm usually the jolly type who remains perky all day long, so it's really not often that one can catch me with a i-want-to-kill-someone-today look.
i am glad that i was honest with the test i took. it's good to know that there's something about me that i need to address with a lot of effort, in the soonest possible time. a lot of people are worse than i am, but still, it doesn't give me the right to retain my aggressiveness.
my seatmate for that class admitted that she's indeed physically aggressive. she even told me of an instance when she threw her phone to the maid when the latter pissed her off real bad. thank God that i never was, am, and hopefully will be like that.
when my acting professor got pissed at the class, he actually said that, "you guys should know how lucky you are. i allowed you to see a side of me that even my fiance hasn't even seen." it's just a few days later that i got to realize what he meant by that. not that i'm saying that everyone has to see our horrible, aggressive selves. what i'm saying is it doesn't really hurt to let some of the people we trust the most to see the side that we always hide in order to keep our ideal selves pleasant to everyone's eyes. i'm such a hypocrite for hiding a lot of myself even to my closest friends.
i confess that i am indeed an impulsive person. you see, i always seem to have a reaction to something, and more often than not, it's usually intense. the good thing about it is that if you let me react on it for an hour or two, after, i tend to lighten up.
it's not often that i shout and curse at someone directly. i have never cursed someone in their faces during heated arguments, even if i was provoked. (there was an incident when i was in sophomore year when i was cursed "p*****i*a" during an open forum session. and i kept my silence.) the most that i do were usually to raise my voice. if i again, remember it right, i never became physically violent. but when i was in high school, if i really am pissed, i let it out on chairs and walls. well, as i grew older, and hopefully wiser, i have exhausted all physical efforts in sports rather than slapping or punching someone.
however, i really become obviously quiet and look disturbed when i am in a bad mood. i usually give the excuse "i'm just tired" when i don't want to elaborate on a problem, or sometimes, when the friend that's asking me what the nature of my problem is, is the friend that is causing my problem and i just couldn't tell him/ her straight (although the latter does not happen all the time.) this is something that only my close friends know about. i'm usually the jolly type who remains perky all day long, so it's really not often that one can catch me with a i-want-to-kill-someone-today look.
i am glad that i was honest with the test i took. it's good to know that there's something about me that i need to address with a lot of effort, in the soonest possible time. a lot of people are worse than i am, but still, it doesn't give me the right to retain my aggressiveness.
my seatmate for that class admitted that she's indeed physically aggressive. she even told me of an instance when she threw her phone to the maid when the latter pissed her off real bad. thank God that i never was, am, and hopefully will be like that.
when my acting professor got pissed at the class, he actually said that, "you guys should know how lucky you are. i allowed you to see a side of me that even my fiance hasn't even seen." it's just a few days later that i got to realize what he meant by that. not that i'm saying that everyone has to see our horrible, aggressive selves. what i'm saying is it doesn't really hurt to let some of the people we trust the most to see the side that we always hide in order to keep our ideal selves pleasant to everyone's eyes. i'm such a hypocrite for hiding a lot of myself even to my closest friends.
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