our apologies sir sev

there's something about today that makes me feel so low, feel so embarrassed. it's not that i did something that can be featured in the bloopers section of teen magazines. this morning in class, sir sev's face was enough to make me want to hide from him for more than a year.

you see, due to cramming and hectic schedules, we did one lousy project. from the A that we got in the first project, sir sev wanted to give us an F for this one. and i could not get myself to protest since i know that he's right, a hundred percent.

i got his point that since we're all seniors and we've been under him for quite a while, he's expecting a lot from us, and here we are, submitting a totally lousy project, and even the remedial one wasn't even enough. it was really nice of him to give us another chance to make up for it, saying that he believes that we can do it.

it just kills me to think i fell below someone's expectation especially that someone is one of the fewer people who i actually look up to. i think of him as my pseudo dad. and he's the type of professor who can easily get the affection of the students--he's smart, funny, sweet (in a very contradicting way), openminded, and he's willing to learn from the youth and enjoy being with our company. he is the coolest teacher one can imagine.

i'll miss him. i'll miss the anecdotes he constantly gives us during group discussions. i'll miss the way he would call me by my full name saying that my first name is one of those that needs to be called with the last name. i'll miss the way he impersonates our advertising teacher (who was also his), our batchmates, his fellow teachers, and celebrities, especially the gay ones. i'll miss the chismis he would share with us. i'll miss the way he expresses his love for jollibee, chicken joy. i'll miss the way he mocks and loves the filipino culture. i'll miss the way he gives us pieces of advice like a dad would do. and it's sad that we have left him a bad impression just when we were about to part ways.