i'd rather you shoot me dead...

aside from my upcoming PMS, countless things have been getting me irritated (to the extent of i'd rather you shoot me dead than trap me a room and leave me no choice but to deal with them) here are some of them..

1. sandara park

during the height of star circle quest, i have read some blogs and asked people's opinion about her. most of them, at least from my side of social circle, thankfully said they find no sense in her inclusion in the final 4. wala talaga siyang talent. obviously. she apparently got everyone's attention and support with her stupid "miss universe hand wave" while being teary-eyed in front of the heartless (?) judges. i'm hoping i'm wrong, but i really find her stupid. i even remember lucky manzano interviewing her.

lucky: "sandy, dati raw you were an honor student sa school mo. what's happening with your studies now?"

sandara: "i was intelligent before."

*what the f?

lucky (obviously shocked): "so, intelligent ka before. eh ngayon, hindi ka na intelligent?!"

another thing that i hate about her is her song--in or out. pucha naman, pati ba naman yan gawan daw ba ng kanta?! what's worse is that it has been topping the myx hit charts. (well, i don't really like myx anyway. but please, there are much more songs that are much more popular and deserving than in or out!) she can't even speak the filipino language for god's sake.

the most that i hate about her is how she's being paired up with my one great love, patrick garcia. for crying out loud, patrick had the best partner (ONSCREEN) but he actually agreed to be paired with her just because she admits on national television that he's her crush. can't just ABS bring back the patrick-paula love team if they really have to give him a love team?!? and i couldn't get myself to lighten up when i saw sandara doing the finale in his asap birthday bash. darn.

2. itsumo

i don't really know what's with this song that people have been singing it passionately. by far, sun valley crew (at least when i was in high school) is a better rap group than them. and freak. words can never be enough to actually express my disgust over the song and the group (gloc 9, if i am not mistaken). i guess my friend was right too when she said that you'll just have to hate the group because of how baduy their packaging is. just plain senseless.

3. mystica

say i were a parent today, and i had a little kid. this would be a scenario while watching a classic disney fairy tale movie:

me: look anak, there's the witch. she's bad and looks horrible.

kid: but mommy, do they really exist?

me: of course they're real. (turn off the vcr and switch to a mystica guesting). see anak, she's looks more of a witch than urusla or cruella deville.

am i just rude?

her long red nails and oddly colored hair are just cheap. her infamous sagutan with hero angeles in the first episode of y speak caught my attention--another opportunity for me to contribute to rudeness in this world. the topic of the debate was something like should young celebrities go to school. hero, being a UP student, was on the side of the should, and mystica, for obvious reasons, sided with no. the argument became so heated to the extent of hero sayings something like this, "kung ako ang anak mo, ikahihiya talaga kita!" tsk tsk.

more to come...

amazing race

throughout the race, colin never failed to impress me. hot na magaling pa dumiskarte. my jaw was dropping while i was watching the road block task that he did in palawan. he was too damn quick in pulling himself up that mountain. i was again impressed with how he dealt with the maze. yes, he's hot-tempered, but he's way more patient than his girlfriend christie. he's mayabang but he had every right to be so. yes, i'm just too blinded by his wit and looks.

brandon has a nice body, but his intense religiousness turned me off. what i do admire with him and partner nicole though was that they broke the stereotype of models. also, they had the longest patience--no one and beat them in that aspect. they weren't panciky, just calmly (relatively) playing the game.

chip and kim. well i used to like them. except until when they yielded colin and christie. i know that they had to do it knowing that colin and christie were really the best team. and you're just plain stupid if you didn't yield the team that can lord the race. then again, colin and christie being my favorite, i just had to hate them.

bowling moms. linda and karen have been lucky throughout the race. well, i'd have to admit that it's not just luck that made them last until the 13th leg of the race. in spite of feeling down and all, when they realized that they were going to be the team to be eliminated, they sincerely had no disappointment towards each other.

colin (without christie) deserved to win. a lot of my friends hate him, but they do admit that he's really the best. even phil had to say that colin and christie's tandem is one of the most competitive in the history of the reality show. nonetheless, chip and kim did a great job.

this is the only reality adventure game that can force me to watch it every week. it does deserve the emmy award it recently earned.

i am hoping amazing race 6 would be much more exciting.

tabloid news on the 19th of september, 2004

last night, while doing my history reflection paper, (midnight right after shrek on abs-cbn), i chanced upon the weekend news. two weird stories have disrupted my cramming:

1. a kid was killed by an ambulance-- an ironic usual incident in the philippines.
2. a 7-year old kid now has a c0ntract with the real madrid soccer team. --considering when i was at that age, i knew nothing but eat, sleep, and watch tv all day.

unvalidated myths?

songs playing: only when i leave and sunlight--paolo santos' version

during the days when pirated dvds were not yet available to public, a movie ticket would cost you merely 30 bucks, sm malls were everybody's favorite movie theaters, and people weren't seriously conscious of the time the film starts and ends, movie horror stories, or should i say myths scared the shit out of overprotective parents.

the most famous would definitely be the random HIV injections. according to the myth, there were HIV positive people who appearantly couldn't contain the virus just to themselves, so they felt the need to pass the virus to other people. according to the stories, these people either stick the needle to your arms or worse, they stick it to your ass, thanks to the hole of the foldable chairs. my mother would therefore make us wear longsleeved shirts and jackets if we insisted on catching the latest hollywood flick. when i was in fourth year high school, this story resurrected. this time, instead of sm megamall, it was sm manila. and if i remember it right, the virus was no longer HIV but e-bola.

there's also the unforgettable rat-in-the-kentucky-fried-chicken-bucket story. there was a group of teenagers who went to watch a movie while enjoying colonel sanders' original recipe fried chicken when suddenly, this guy grabs what he thought was a drumstick. well, of course it was moving so he freaked out and everyone else in the room panicked and raced to the outside of the theater. a lot of people really bought that story. i'm pretty sure KFC sales definitely declined. since then, we refrained from eating KFC... and years later, we couldn't bear it. so to hell with the myth.

how can we forget the famous alice dixon seeing a snake in a robinsons galleria dressing room story? this was funny. there were so many versions of this story. some people thought that it was alice dixon who actually brought the snake in the mall. then again, a lot of people bought this stupid story. robinsons galleria then became one of the places to avoid.

oh, and there's the burger mcdo made with worms. hey, i have to admit. i kinda bought this one. well, i'm just not sure if my mom was playing a joke on me, but she would always tell me that one of her odd jobs then was to raise worms to be placed as beef substitutes in burgermachine burgers, so she was insisting that there is indeed a high probability that mcdonalds has decided to join the cheating bandwagon. yuck.

there's also the old jollibee fries made from kamote, not really potatoes. i'm no food connoisseur so i can't really validate or disprove this one. mcdonald's, on the other hand, are being accused of not really serving apple pies but sayote pies. again, this is still a big question mark.

are we really stupid when we buy these stories? can we help it?

thoughts on friendship

song playing: swept away, and only when i leave--paolo santos' version.

last night, i had a dream. it's too sensitive so i couldn't really share it. anyway, i woke up before the ending. the bad ending is the one that i keep on thinking about. and until this moment, the pessimistic thought remains. shet. mangyari na ang lahat, wag lang yun.

anyway, it's been a week since my "friend" and her boyfriend pissed me off. thankfully, i am gradually recovering with the help of my good friends. it's just sad that after almost two years of good friendship, i decided to let it go. i no longer found any reason to stay. she didn't give me. she actually made me realize that she's just not a "friend" to me. well, i'm getting better with coping. i just don't know if it's because the person whom i had to let go wasn't really that important, or the things that she did were too painful, or maybe i'm just tired of understanding people in general.

lately, i have been thinking about friendships in general. honestly, if i were to retain the few friends that i have now, my life would be perfect. as long as NOT ONE of them ditches me, especially those really close to me, i'd be happy. i have been blabbering about how important friends have been in my life, but i just realized some things that a lot of people would find surprising. since i am quite contented with my handful of friends, i no longer want to put as much effort as i used to in having new friends. it's quite tiring to put an effort to put your best foot forward when meeting new people. i'd rather spend much more time bonding with my friends than meeting new ones since it's gonna be a new ballgame if i had to. it's like you have to introduce yourself again and again. it's just too tiring. as i have said, i'd rather improve the quality of my relationships with my friends. it's when you get old that you realize that quality will always be more essential than quantity.

to date, i have lost 3 friends that i thought i could count on for the rest of my life--trisha, irene, and now criselle. i do feel bad that i had to part with them unideally. but then again, i no longer want to be dishonest and too understanding. i'm not saying that these people are not good. it's just i'd rather think of them as the wrong friends for me. if i were to be asked, i am no longer interested in being their close friend. but i do have to say, no regrets. we did have our good times, and i wouldn't want to discount them. i'm happier now with the people i am with.

survey 07

[NOW]

happy or sad: happy... actually steady is a better description

sleepy or awake: awake

hungry or full: full. thanks to the many pulvoron, chocnut, and gelatin i ate for the bowling competion

dirty or clean: medyo dirty.

single or taken: single

alone or with someone beside u: alone

sick or healthy: getting sick

[WHAT]

you last ate: chocnut, pulvoron, gelatin

you last drank: yogurt that my mom bought from china

you wearing now: my bowling uniform top and my favorite pair of jeans

are you thinking of: getting over some problems

are you wishing for: i hope things stay as they are.

do you overuse: curses

you take for granted: some of my friends

[WHO]

you miss the most: buds, ate gail, and my other friends that i can feel comfortable the most with

you love: my friends

you feel most happy with: with my closest friends who know me the most

makes you laugh like a maniac: ate gail, kumag, kamats

makes u sleep: my theo teacher

makes u cry: my "friends" and my real friends (when they make me happy)

makes you angry: kupal

enlightens you: God

ill-treats you: hahaha kupal

[WHEN]

is your birthday: 20 feb 1984

is your loved one's birthday: i might want to find out who he is

your anniversary: again, i might want to find out who he is

is the happiest day of your life: when i am in the best friends

did you last swear: just an hour ago

did you last have a fight: last weekend

did you last cry: last weekend

[HOW]

do you break off with someone: i wouldn't know

do you overcome depression: i work my ass off

do you live your life: now, more unsafe than ever.

do you make friends: smile and a little chat

you pass your time: sleep, watch television, or talk with someone

do you pass your exams: study, make bola

do you find yourself: i realize i'm too nice

[WHY]

do you normally get angry: pag kinukupalan ako without enough reason

do you cry: i can no longer bear the pain

are you who you are: because of the influences of the people i admire

songs playing: color my world and sabihin mo lang by regine v.

i still don't really know why i finally decided last minute to go to last night's acoustic event at the loft, rockwell. nyoy and his mannos, mymp, nina, and some amateur bands performed. honestly, lately, i am not in the mood for acoustic music. i have gone back to getting myself obsessed with good ol' sentimental and OPM hits. nevertheless, i still got to enjoy three acts: mymp (aside from their hits, they sang an EBTG song, waiting in vain, and another old song that obviously the stupid crowd didn't know), the senior IS bossa nova band rio bossa (i didn't know ivy pareño and faith had a band, congrats to them for winning the open mic contest last night), and fat tuesdays (they sang passage's you won't see me crying). what about nyoy? well, yeah, his talent is still there, but for some reason, he wasn't able to impress me like the way he did the first time i heard him in a concert in school along with jimmy and nina (if i remember it right, this is the night of the oakwood mutiny). ny0y sounded too "feeling". he was showing off his guitar skills, which i (i don't really know if the whole world agrees with me about this) didn't find impressive at all. moreover, it was boring, and stupid. if i were the head of the project, i wouldn't think i spent my money right with the way he played last night. it's that bad.

okay... so much for that. i had a relatively weird day yesterday. can't say i didn't enjoy it, nor i didn't hate it. after our meeting at 2:30 for theo project, i spent the rest of the day at the caf and swallowing the 2 twin popsies ice cream with kamats. the chocolate flavor still tastes better. when we bought chicharitos, we finished two small packs of chicken skin. when we got to rockwell, we decided to have dinner at tokyo tokyo, and i finished one and a half cup of rice (ironically, i am seriously not a rice eater) with 3 pieces of california maki and chicken terriyaki with a jumbo size red iced tea (which i equate to a feeling of paradise). when we got to the loft, kamats and i again consumed a chocolate twin popsies. towards the end of the night, we got a bucket of the buy-the-bucket nachos since she said she was hungry. which reminds me, i might have to cede from the bet i made with my friend that i'd be able to wear bikinis in three months time. i'll be needing more fibrosine today.

what sort of ruined my day yesterday was that i had to see my "friend" who has now become one of the people i loathe so much. she was with two of our common friends and i just had to "not see them" because honestly i didn't know how not to be impolite to that "friend". in as much as i have the reasons to hate her, i'd still rather not be bastos to her. i would still have to respect our common friends. and i don't really like them to feel like i am destructing our "friend's" reputation to them. and plus, i am getting over the shit that she and her fu%$ing boyfriend did to me.

now, on the brighter side. after almost six months, i got to see one of my favorite people in the world.... ATE DUDAY, also known as ate gail. she's one of my few good friends that can actually make me forget about my problems and deal with them maturely. i super miss her. since she got into ateneo law school last june, (and she actually has been convincing me to follow her, as usual, but i am lazy, so i'm no longer considering that career option) we haven't really seen each other (i think even after her grad pa nga ata). we're lucky if we are able to chat on the phone for once or twice a month. since i was in the area, i really had to see her. and i had to pull her out from her late night project making session with her group just to be able to share our rants in life together. we just spent 15 minutes and she had to go. darn. good thing she left me her blog address.

it's saturday and in an hour and a half's time, i would have to play in our bowling team's lowerclassmen vs. upperclassmen competition. i am feeling bad with all the oily food that i consumed last night. 3 months... help me LORD!

extra joss

current song playing: you first believed by hoku; color my world by regine velasquez

surprisingly, extra joss doesn't take like medicine. it has the color and the taste of the soda drinks LIFT/ MOUNTAIN DEW. it's not even expensive (less than 100 bucks for 10 sachets). HOWEVER... it wasn't strong enough to keep me up the whole night.

after a 9 hour schoolday (with only an hour and a half break), i had to go to UP to watch lucia for history class.

the ticket said the movie was supposed to start at 7. well, after long speeches by the officers of the sponsoring UP student org League of Filipino Students, and the movie director Mel Chionglo, and some movie trailers, the movie finally started at 7:40. (how sad can it be when just before i got in the theater, i was rejoicing when i found out that the film was just 90 minutes long.)

lucia. shot in 35mm. it was lino brocka's last project, but then he died first before he even got a chance to direct the movie. mel chionglo took over his place. ricky lee did the screenplay. the movie was produced by BBC (yep... you read it right. the BRITISH BROADCASTING COMPANY). it won the best environmental film back in 1991. and BBC had the grand plan of giving a copy of the film to all governments around the world to promote environmental awareness. the sad thing is, here in the philippines, we don't have a print copy of the film. we were only able to watch the re-dubbed version from ricky lee's master copy. it was even 7 minutes shorter than the print version. the only copies of the print are in the british film institute and with the line producer of the movie george santos who, according to mel chionglo, could not be found. sad.

*for taskeen and blooey. (read this and it might be able to help you write your reaction papers for history)

how was the movie? great... (read: sarcasm all over my face). dragging. the story was too impossible to happen. exaggerated.

last night, i was supposed to stay up the entire night to do two things that cannot be compromised: study history for today's long exam (oh boy... having a professor from UP is quite a challenge: 20 items of modified true or false--and you have to explain the whole thing, not just change the word that makes the sentence wrong, 4 pts. each item, and the killer.... right minus wrong) and submit a thesis update on chapter two. because of the ineffectiveness of the product, i wasn't able to accomplish both. good thing i was able to wake up early--7:30 AM to come up with something for thesis.

because i like the taste, i might as well give extra joss another try...

just to get everybody to hate me... :) i wouldn't be having classes straight from friday to monday. for some miraculous reason, all my theo, history, and media management classes are called off... :) long break for a full load student. :)